The Longing for Home

"It is when he comes home that he recognizes most poignantly that he is, at a deep level of his being, homeless, and that whatever it is that is missing, he will spend the rest of his days longing for it and seeking to find it."

----Frederick Buechner

Core Values

Spirituality
Truth
Compassion
Kindness
Acceptance
Honesty
Adventure
Friendship
Community

IBM

Today, I was invited to a Missionary Conference at a Baptist Church near Downtown San Salvador. Although the traffic was horrible and I was in a (sort of) cranky mood, God spoke directly to my heart. He reminded me the importance of following His example in loving the hurting, the broken and the marginalized. The sermon was heart-felt and sincere....not extensively elaborate. There was something that tugged my heart-strings: there is still so MUCH need in this world; so many people who need to know about Christ. So many people hurting and blind by all the lies from the enemy. And yet we as Christian tend to settle into shallow waters, shallow lives of comfort and mediocrity. God invites us into His boat to travel into the deep waters where we can sip and enjoy the depths of His wonders and mysteries.

I uttered a prayer later that night:

"Lord, lead me into the deep waters, although my feet may fail. Lead me where my heart truly belongs....to love those who are broken, lonely and hurting in this dark world."

A reflection

A lot of changes has happened these recent years that it's hard to imagine where I was 3 years ago. 

I am so thankful that I am no longer in a place where I felt drained and unhappy all the time. It's been taking me time to heal from all those bad experiences, but I give thanks to God that those memories and people are simply ghosts from the past. I don't want to be with them ever again. 

Sadly, most of my unpleasant experiences in life has been with religious people. 

Letting go of all that negative energy and bad experiences has been a challenge. But music has helped me through the process. 

Now I can breathe, and have the hope that God has the best prepared for me. 

From those experiences, I learned to discern, to establish healthy boundaries and to weed out toxic people. 

I also learned to be more selective with who do I let into my life; people who are positive, loving and whom I can have constructive conversations. People who genuinely care for my well-being and have no ulterior motives. 

I pray for more meaningful and loving relationships in my life. 

Culto Misionero Juvenil

Today, I had the privilege to speak about missions in front of thousands of youths. It was truly inspiring to see so many people wanting to go on missions and serve the Lord. I am thankful because it has been my desire to continue to serve in missions and God has provided me so many opportunities. I am planning to go to Honduras to serve the Garifunas this December. Please pray that the Lord may open the way for me to go for Him again.